Silentness

Readers sorry for being long time I'm not here to update my blog!

I've been lazy and out of mood without any reason.

Lovely buddies forgive me that I change my emotional like the weather!

Something happen came too suddenly,

Like friend's father pass away,twice a week! (sorry to heard that)

Sister getting marry soon! (congratulation)

and me...like a dreamer...and I know I'm not the only one!

anything happen for a reason,

and is just like a DREAM!

But in fact,IT'S ALL REAL!

Friendship like getting some problems recently!

Hurting my sweetie pie deeply I think!

Sorry if I did!

I hate people who break their promise,

especially you are the friend who close with me.

I knew its not being the first time that you break the promise,

and you did the mistake again and again!

that's the reason why I so fucking care and angry!

When I need somebody,

Nobody was beside me!

Honestly, disappointed of all of this and I hate it!

The feeling totally suck and made me start to think negatively.

When I was alone,

I'll think as many that I can like a crazier!

but the fucking mood is like easy come and go,

in the end...

I'm still a stronger and falling with style! :D

Friends,I'll afraid to losing the relationship between us!

cause our time is not same like before in college,

I'm getting less and less time to spending with you all,

I'll care and hurt too!

On the outside I looked fine,

but on the inside I am not.

I never show my sadness so I kept silence,

it never means I don't care about it,

cause for me the only deepest feelings are shown in silence!

and when I get sad,

I stop being sad and be AWESOME instead.

that's the reason why I always mention I'm nothing,I'm alright,I'm Ok....

please let me fall awhile,

and I promise myself I'll stand up very fast!

I dint blame of anyone and I just blaming myself,

so can you guys don't simply judge me if you don't understand me!

because you don't have the right to,

you don't even know what I've been through,

you don't know what I've felt or what I feel right now.

Even I cried I wont show out and it will be silent too!

that's the reason I never tears drop before in front of you all.

Its pass.

Letting Go just Move On!

I cherish all of my friends who are around me,

hope I din't get forget!

Think happy be happy :)